Senseless Emotions & Social exhaustion
Published at : November 23, 2021
Each passing day you lose more and more energy.
Aren't you supposed to be happy?
What's the point of being sad?
What's the cause?
Keep talking to yourself. Perhaps one day you'll find an answer.
Perhaps you'll forever be lost.
You know... I miss being able to sleep, I miss being able to be just happy.
I miss being able to live a nice day and not be a wreck at night.
Am I really worthy?
The answer should be yes but I don't feel like it?
Do I need to prove myself to... myself?
Is that what it takes for me to be just happy?
I'm gonna be honest here, I'm totally fucked up.
Life isn't supposed to be like this! It should have been nicer, It should have been happier no matter what happens I should have been a good person, I should have been the best version of myself!
But what did i get? Senseless emotions, lack of empathy, sleepless nights and an invinsible weight on my shoulders.
I could learn to carry that weight, I should be able to adapt to that weight but how am I supposed to do that when it gets heavier each passing day?
I'm at a point where I get the urge to cry at random. The funny thing is I almost forgot what being able to cry feels like.
All I feel is the urge... nothing comes out in the end.
Damn.
Fuck all of these senseless feelings! Damn them to hell!
Sometimes I just stare at the night, Into the stars and beyond.
I think to myself, what a beautiful sight.
With the motivation of the smell of the night air, I start smoking away.
What do i think to myself?
I think of everything no matter what it is.
I guess it hurts but it's addictive.
I'm going back to my old self that I thought I got rid of and It fucking hurts.
What changed? Everything. What did i get? A lot of things. What am I lacking? I DON'T KNOW. Why am I still not happy? Why am I still not happy?
Why does the weight on my shoulders get heavier each day?
What do I need to do? What happend to me?
To hell with all these feelings man...
To hell with'em.
I feel so lonely
I don't wanna be lonely
I want to be happy, but all I get is Senseless emotions
& social exhaustion.
Songs included in the video:
00:00 | I'd rather Be a Sailor than A Fighter - Go! Save the Hostages.
06:32 | Revival - Sleep Dealer
12:55 | Can You Fix A Broken Memory - Khara
18:21 | Sunny Days - I am No Hero
26:00 | Nola - Applaches
36:50 | I see you when I look at the stars | April Rain
42:37 | In a Million Years | High Altitude Nuclear Explosion
47:40 | Remnants | Dan Caine
I don't earn anything from my videos.
Thank you for listening and maybe reading.
My email for copyright issues:
contact.geceninhuzuru@gmail.com
Aren't you supposed to be happy?
What's the point of being sad?
What's the cause?
Keep talking to yourself. Perhaps one day you'll find an answer.
Perhaps you'll forever be lost.
You know... I miss being able to sleep, I miss being able to be just happy.
I miss being able to live a nice day and not be a wreck at night.
Am I really worthy?
The answer should be yes but I don't feel like it?
Do I need to prove myself to... myself?
Is that what it takes for me to be just happy?
I'm gonna be honest here, I'm totally fucked up.
Life isn't supposed to be like this! It should have been nicer, It should have been happier no matter what happens I should have been a good person, I should have been the best version of myself!
But what did i get? Senseless emotions, lack of empathy, sleepless nights and an invinsible weight on my shoulders.
I could learn to carry that weight, I should be able to adapt to that weight but how am I supposed to do that when it gets heavier each passing day?
I'm at a point where I get the urge to cry at random. The funny thing is I almost forgot what being able to cry feels like.
All I feel is the urge... nothing comes out in the end.
Damn.
Fuck all of these senseless feelings! Damn them to hell!
Sometimes I just stare at the night, Into the stars and beyond.
I think to myself, what a beautiful sight.
With the motivation of the smell of the night air, I start smoking away.
What do i think to myself?
I think of everything no matter what it is.
I guess it hurts but it's addictive.
I'm going back to my old self that I thought I got rid of and It fucking hurts.
What changed? Everything. What did i get? A lot of things. What am I lacking? I DON'T KNOW. Why am I still not happy? Why am I still not happy?
Why does the weight on my shoulders get heavier each day?
What do I need to do? What happend to me?
To hell with all these feelings man...
To hell with'em.
I feel so lonely
I don't wanna be lonely
I want to be happy, but all I get is Senseless emotions
& social exhaustion.
Songs included in the video:
00:00 | I'd rather Be a Sailor than A Fighter - Go! Save the Hostages.
06:32 | Revival - Sleep Dealer
12:55 | Can You Fix A Broken Memory - Khara
18:21 | Sunny Days - I am No Hero
26:00 | Nola - Applaches
36:50 | I see you when I look at the stars | April Rain
42:37 | In a Million Years | High Altitude Nuclear Explosion
47:40 | Remnants | Dan Caine
I don't earn anything from my videos.
Thank you for listening and maybe reading.
My email for copyright issues:
contact.geceninhuzuru@gmail.com
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